Rachelle Laughs.: big house

So... I don't know if I have every really pointed out that I live at home with my parents right now. With my current situation, living at home was the most logical decision...

My work is close to my parents' house
I am paying for graduate school out of pocket
I cannot live with my boyfriend since he lives too far away
I have no idea where I will be in a couple years after I graduate so, I cannot buy a house.
Renting an apartment would be a waste of money if I can live at home for free and pay for grad school out of pocket
I will have no debt once I graduate and will be able to afford a nicer house when I do buy one.

While I love my parents dearly and appreciate all that they do for me, living at home is just what you imagine it to be. I mean, yes my mom will do my laundry and cook for me, but she also will call me if I don't come home by a certain time just to check that I am still alive... she will also 20-question me about everything, just because she is curious about my life. I also cannot just sit around and do nothing for a day, because I feel guilty that I am being lazy when she is up and about working and cooking and cleaning... etc etc etc.

This week... my parents are on a cruise with some of their friends and it has really hit me hard that I really don't like living alone, even if the alternative is living with my parents. I constantly keep the TV on, because I like the background noise of voices talking. I am calling Jay every minute because I want someone to talk to. I sleep on the couch downstairs, because when I am in my bed upstairs, I hear the creaking of my house and think someone is robbing it downstairs. I have been eating out a lot, because making meals for only one person is never fun and I won't eat the left overs.

I never realized how much I truly enjoy being surrounded by people.

Another realization I have made this week is that I really like to entertain. I had people over last weekend in celebration of having a big house to myself. Just several of my friends gathered for food, laughs, and games. I had fun going out and shopping for appetizers. I enjoyed writing the text messages to invite everyone over. I liked making sure everyone was having fun. We had some beers/wine/cocktails and played good old fashioned pictionary. It was a great time. I really look forward to buying a house and hosting. Jay and I have talked about how we think we will be great hosts since I love setting up parties and planning the music, activities, and food, while Jay is really great at cooking. Hopefully the future comes sooner than I think it will.